Can anyone explain to me how to “Let Go” and really give our worries to God? I believe in God and I've felt His power in my life before but it seems like I am on this continuous rollercoaster of trust vs. doubt and I really want to get to a place where I am free from all the fears that are holding me back, not just from living the life I want but also and most importantly from having and maintaining a relationship with God.
“I’m giving my troubles to the Lord.” I’ve said those words a million times before but have I really? I fear not. I honestly don’t even know how that is possible. I feel so selfish to say that I am expecting God to handle the problems that I have created. We all worry, but my worrying, anxiety and fear are literally holding me back. It’s draining me of all energy and life inside me and over the years I have faded to what I feel is less than nothing. My biggest fear is that one day it will be too late. That God will get tired of waiting and chasing me. I am physically mentally, and emotionally tired and I do not want to run any more. I can not run any more. My only choice now is to gain an understanding of what God wants from me and for me so that I can move forward. But how do I do this when I feel so lost. I realize that I am the only one standing in my way and I desperately want to know how to get past this.
I know without a doubt that God has a purpose for me. I have felt it my entire life, but I have also run from it my entire life. I get close to God only to pull away just like with every other personal relationship I’ve had. I’ve put up so many walls that I don’t even know how many are there any more. Is it possible to put up a wall from God as well? It is possible to be afraid also of his love?
I know that God would never turn his back on me so what am I afraid of? Perhaps I am afraid not of Him letting me down but instead I am afraid of me letting Him down. I have so many questions and too few answers. I want answers. I want to break free of this darkness that has a hold of me. I want to say it’s going to be alright and really believe it for longer than the moment. I want to smile a genuine smile. I want to believe in myself the way that I believe in God. Is any of this really possible or am I doomed to a life of depression and pain? My life is still out of control in my eyes, even despite the fact that I have grown so much and come so far. I'm still missing something. There is a huge emptiness inside me and I need to understand why I still do not love myself enough to allow God to love me too, to allow God to guide me and trust God to know that everything will be alright. I guess the question is not why can I not let God in but instead why I will not allow Him to stay. Why do I keep pushing him away? What do I fear?
What’s holding me back? How do I “Let go and Let God”? Is there really such a thing, or is it just something people say? I’ve heard that if you do not leave your worries with God then you are saying to Him that you do not trust him, but I want to trust Him. I really do want to allow His presence in my life; not just for a moment, a day, a week or for months, but I want to know how to allow him in permanently……. I want to feel that feeling forever….that feeling you get when you know God is with you….the feeling of complete joy and happiness, when you’re so happy you cry, that feeling that no other can make you feel and that no other can compare. I have felt this before, many times, but it was always short lived and I want to take this feeling with me where ever I go. I want God and Need God in my life so how do I let this miracle of God happen????
“I’m giving my troubles to the Lord.” I’ve said those words a million times before but have I really? I fear not. I honestly don’t even know how that is possible. I feel so selfish to say that I am expecting God to handle the problems that I have created. We all worry, but my worrying, anxiety and fear are literally holding me back. It’s draining me of all energy and life inside me and over the years I have faded to what I feel is less than nothing. My biggest fear is that one day it will be too late. That God will get tired of waiting and chasing me. I am physically mentally, and emotionally tired and I do not want to run any more. I can not run any more. My only choice now is to gain an understanding of what God wants from me and for me so that I can move forward. But how do I do this when I feel so lost. I realize that I am the only one standing in my way and I desperately want to know how to get past this.
I know without a doubt that God has a purpose for me. I have felt it my entire life, but I have also run from it my entire life. I get close to God only to pull away just like with every other personal relationship I’ve had. I’ve put up so many walls that I don’t even know how many are there any more. Is it possible to put up a wall from God as well? It is possible to be afraid also of his love?
I know that God would never turn his back on me so what am I afraid of? Perhaps I am afraid not of Him letting me down but instead I am afraid of me letting Him down. I have so many questions and too few answers. I want answers. I want to break free of this darkness that has a hold of me. I want to say it’s going to be alright and really believe it for longer than the moment. I want to smile a genuine smile. I want to believe in myself the way that I believe in God. Is any of this really possible or am I doomed to a life of depression and pain? My life is still out of control in my eyes, even despite the fact that I have grown so much and come so far. I'm still missing something. There is a huge emptiness inside me and I need to understand why I still do not love myself enough to allow God to love me too, to allow God to guide me and trust God to know that everything will be alright. I guess the question is not why can I not let God in but instead why I will not allow Him to stay. Why do I keep pushing him away? What do I fear?
What’s holding me back? How do I “Let go and Let God”? Is there really such a thing, or is it just something people say? I’ve heard that if you do not leave your worries with God then you are saying to Him that you do not trust him, but I want to trust Him. I really do want to allow His presence in my life; not just for a moment, a day, a week or for months, but I want to know how to allow him in permanently……. I want to feel that feeling forever….that feeling you get when you know God is with you….the feeling of complete joy and happiness, when you’re so happy you cry, that feeling that no other can make you feel and that no other can compare. I have felt this before, many times, but it was always short lived and I want to take this feeling with me where ever I go. I want God and Need God in my life so how do I let this miracle of God happen????
